How has it already been 6 weeks since I last posted about life with Coen? Time is flying. It’s so true what they say, that the days are long but the weeks/months/years are short. That’s how it feels around here, and Coen is changing SO fast! It’s exciting and happy and sad all at the same time – bittersweet, I suppose, is the word for it. For weeks and weeks Coen needed to fall asleep in my arms; to be held constantly. Which was wonderful in many ways, but it also often felt so hard – I’m used to doing a lot and having full use of my arms! – and frustrating when he’d cry immediately if Ryan or I set him down.
And now all of a sudden this week, he doesn’t need me to hold him all the time anymore. Those days are already over. They’ll never come back. He’s laying in his little sleeper right next to me as I type this, and while it’s so wonderful, this new-found independence of his, I can’t help but feel a little sad, too. Why didn’t I savor those snuggly weeks more? Try to do less and just be in it, fully?
But what’s emerging now is so exciting – smiles! Giggles! Recognizing Ryan and I! Cooing and making the sweetest noises I’ve ever heard in my life! It’s amazing.
Several weeks ago, 2 of my sisters came to visit (I have 3 sisters and 1 brother, all younger than me!). One of my sisters had a baby, Charlie, just 2 days before I did, so we got the cousins together to meet for the first time:
As you can imagine, we took about one million photos of them like this. :)
Isn’t Coen huge??
My aunt gifted him this onesie, and it’s my favorite. I hope he lives up to it. It’s scary to think that he’s going to turn into this person who makes his own decisions and has his own life and he won’t need me anymore one day….
I suppose I don’t need to think about that yet. For now, he’s my snuggly baby who depends on me for everything, and I am falling more and more in love with him each day. For now, I can love him and keep him safe and hope that it will help shape him into a wonderful human who does good things for and in this world. Sweet baby Coen.
My Grandma, aunt, and uncle came to visit for Thanksgiving, and we had lots of cozy time watching movies and sitting by the fire. My Grandma is almost 89 years old, and she’s still fit to get on a plane by herself and travel from Colorado to Oregon! I hope I’m so lucky at that age.
Here we are, 4 generations! Also, that bear suit kills me every time I put Coen in it:
It is SO CUTE!
Speaking of cute:
These two. Lots of snuggles on the couch lately, as it’s too rainy to go outside and prowl around very much. (Though that didn’t stop Anika from bringing in a mouse yesterday morning, eek.)
We put up our Christmas tree last week, so it’s feeling festive around here. I love the holidays so much.
This year we’re going to Colorado to be with my family for Christmas – Coen’s first time on a plane! – and I’m really looking forward to that. I’m nervous to travel with a baby, but I’m sure it’ll be fine. Nurse him on the way up and on the way down is what I keep hearing!
Ryan and I have a tradition of giving each other a new ornament each year, and this one was my gift to him this year:
A squirrel in a tutu! What’s not to love about that? I also want to start a tradition of making or getting an ornament for Coen each year, something with his name and the date on it – we used to do that every year when I was a kid, and they’re still some of my favorite ornaments and memories.
I was digging through some old photos recently, to see if I could find some of myself when I was a kid that looked something like Coen, and I found this one:
What do you think?? Any resemblance? I think there is!!
And on an entirely different note:
Registration for the upcoming session of Pattern Camp, January 30-31, 2016, is opening this Thursday December 10th!
If you get on this list, you’ll get a special discount code emailed to you when registration opens.
I’m pretty excited for this! Hope you are, too, if pattern design is on your 2016 goal list. :)